Time seems to pass so quickly! It’s been a week. And I’m like, only a week? It seems so much longer. Because so much has happened. Yet last Saturday seems so long ago, event-wise.
I can hardly remember what has happened, or when. We’ll work backwards. 
Yesterday I spent the day recovering from Thursday night’s activities. Alex and Catherine came over and we watched Beauty and the Beast. 
Thursday I had KOC. I had to drop Stephanie and her brother off afterwards then Alex and I went to ’supper’. haha. I spent that night at Kristyn’s, mostly with Lauren Osborn! <3 W
ednesday was KOC followed by Katie's last night. We arrived at Alex's around 5. (I was there earlier but left to get a toothbrush lollllll.) Party, party, cici's, party, swimming, shower, party. 
In the end it was Alex, Rickey, George, and me. That was fun, because they are hilarious.
Tuesday was a half-day of KOC followed by Alex-time followed by work followed by brownies. Alex and Catherine hung out at my work for a longgggg time. Finally Katie called them back and they headed over to my house to start cooking with everyone. And when I got home we all hung out. We ran around, had taco bell, brownies, and Katie learned the art of rolling towel whips. After everyone left Alex, Catherine, and I watched an episode of pushing daisies until Catherine left and I practically fell asleep.
Monday I can't remember.
Same with Sunday.
Today is dinner and movie at Alex's with Rickey, George, and Jordan. Sounds funnn to me.
Anyway, that was a recap.
I guess I've had a lot of thoughts, but I've talked about them so much I don't really feel like thinking about them right now.
I haven't talked to Brittany recently. I don't know if she's okay, so I should try to call her today. Kristyn called me crying yesterday, and I don't know if she is okay yet, because she got home late and slept in the other room. Catherine seems to know a lot about the events in my life, and so somehow I find myself trusting her, even as I know that I shouldn't. I haven't seen Ashleigh in too many days! Tuesday! And I pretty much said a lot I was thinking Thursday night, ironically.
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lol, I feel like going back and making pretty much all of my posts private except like five. And start over. I don’t know why I got this site. I mean, I enjoy it. But it’s pointless, at the same time. I really never have an interesting public posts. Only rambling private ones. And nobody but Ashleigh knows about it. Oh wellz.
My dad has caught glimpses of it, but I hope he hasn’t thought anything of it. Or that it might be mine. Because I don’t want him reading it. Or knowing about it. Or whatever. But it has a huge picture of the star jar I had been working on. Pretty obvious. haha. It’s okay though, I don’t think he’d look it up even if he suspected something, because he’s pretty good about privacy.
My room is clean. Cool.
I’m way tired. Cool.
FoxyTunes has a new… thing… and it’s sweet. There’s a play button next to the links I have to songs and a player rolls out on the left and you can listen to them without downloading them. I love you, firefox. m_m
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Because I don’t have a myspace. I don’t like how I worded these though.
1. You make me more happy than I want to admit. You terrify me. You excite me. It’s hard to be okay with the pain you’ve caused, but it’s impossible to resist.
2. There is no excuse for the ways I’ve treated you in the past. We’ve certainly had our ups and downs but we’ve never talked about them because they just seem to magically fix themselves. I think we have certainly been through a lot now, things are getting serious between us. ~
3. I’ve felt the way you do right now. I think it’s wrong of me to assume it, but I think my assumption is right. And as such, I forgive you.
4. Sometimes I think of the way you left and I still feel sad. I can tell the story and laugh, but it’s been a long time now. I felt so betrayed by everyone. I miss you.
5. Sometimes I think of the way you left and I still feel sad. I can tell the story and laugh, but it’s been a long time now. I felt so betrayed by everyone. I miss you.
6. You are so hypocritical and you are so frustratingly clingy. I know that the way I treat you is wrong, but you don’t take the subtle hints.
7. I used to love hanging out with you. I still love hanging out with you. But after the way you treated me I still can’t help but resent you.
8. I love when I feel needed. It’s part of why I love you, I think. I don’t like when I feel like I’m being used. I know it isn’t your intentions, but I can recognize it and it makes those times un-enjoyable for me.
9. You are so dumb sometimes. I notice that people go through phases of loving and hating you. I love you. But you give out more than you have and it creates the opposite effect than you’re shooting for. You can make me feel so much better about anything.
10. I love you. I always will. It’s not like I have a choice, huh? You call me when you need something. I don’t really bother with us that much anymore. But I really do enjoy our time together. And I laugh and make fun of you. But I really care a lot about you.
BAM SON.
P.S. Alex is in the ER. wtffffffffffffff. I had to call Andrea to figure anything out. And she said she will call me when they figure out what is up. But lkndflsidlsa now I feel awfully worried.
P.P.S. I made a new layout and I think it is cute. Yes.
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Something public.
I went back and made a lot of my posts private again. They’re just a tadddd too personal. Otherwise, my life is semi-not-really-at-all stable? Is it ever? Would I like it if it was? lol.
I feel so stereotypical.
And also horrible.
But… okay.
I’m exactly what I never wanted to be.
And… okay.
Now I’m going to spend some time with Kristyn, meet her puppy, and hear about her trip to visit her mom. Cooooool beeeeeans. Also, Andrew (nor Nick) were home when I went to ambush him for his birthday! Maybe I’ll hear from him later. Private post later? lolz…
PCE laknfids ^_^
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